something to say...
i'm starting a new dmod. dreamweaver. that's all you can know about it right now.
the other part of this blog involves me and my randomness, just a few comments that you might want to read. i know that everyone makes mistakes, blah blah blah, but i feel like i've made too many mistakes, and people are beginning to stop listening to me. i can't count the number of times on one hand that i've been proven wrong on something over the past few days, and it feels...well, awkward :\. the weird thing about feeling awkward is, i'm used to being proven wrong. hundreds of times has the hand of truth come crashing down on my head, revealing to me the light of reasoning in which is the case when i am proven wrong, but i believe now things are starting to pull together to reveal to me...something. i don't know what, but something is trying to be said to me, or maybe it wants me to say something. when i say that i've been proven wrong, i don't mean just mistakes i've made on the dn, but mistakes i've made by putting trust into people who have in turn, disappointed me greatly. someone i know committed suicide monday morning. they didn't know for sure that it was suicide until just a little while ago. if that wasn't enough, one of my friends, one of my best friends, got high and a little crazy, and ended up losing her virginity to some random guy that she doesn't know. i couldn't believe that she told me this, because she was the last person that anyone would suspect to do anything like that. the bad part about it is, she said she remembered that the guy didn't use protection, and so for all we know right now, she could be pregnant. i feel awkward talking to her, because her and i used to have a strong relationship but we never went out, and all the promises that she made...down the drain...a few minutes of pleasure for a lifetime of regret. is it really worth it? i'm not sure which was the bigger mistake...not preventing her from doing it, or trusting that she wouldn't let it happen to herself. don't fool yourself. no matter how strong you think a promise is, it can still be broken. sometimes i believe people get confused and so they purposely make the wrong choices so that someone can tell them that it's not the right way, and the next time the situation comes up they'll know the consequences of the bad choice. i dunno, maybe i have it all wrong. maybe what i see as the wrong choice is really the right choice, but i doubt it. learning by mistake is usually the best way to learn, but some people will never learn. anyway, out of all the confusion, and all the mistakes i've made, all the misunderstood things i've said, everything that anyone took offensive, even all the things i said about KI...I'm sorry. whether it needs to be said or not, it makes me feel better to say it. out of the deepest part of my heart, i'm sorry...
the other part of this blog involves me and my randomness, just a few comments that you might want to read. i know that everyone makes mistakes, blah blah blah, but i feel like i've made too many mistakes, and people are beginning to stop listening to me. i can't count the number of times on one hand that i've been proven wrong on something over the past few days, and it feels...well, awkward :\. the weird thing about feeling awkward is, i'm used to being proven wrong. hundreds of times has the hand of truth come crashing down on my head, revealing to me the light of reasoning in which is the case when i am proven wrong, but i believe now things are starting to pull together to reveal to me...something. i don't know what, but something is trying to be said to me, or maybe it wants me to say something. when i say that i've been proven wrong, i don't mean just mistakes i've made on the dn, but mistakes i've made by putting trust into people who have in turn, disappointed me greatly. someone i know committed suicide monday morning. they didn't know for sure that it was suicide until just a little while ago. if that wasn't enough, one of my friends, one of my best friends, got high and a little crazy, and ended up losing her virginity to some random guy that she doesn't know. i couldn't believe that she told me this, because she was the last person that anyone would suspect to do anything like that. the bad part about it is, she said she remembered that the guy didn't use protection, and so for all we know right now, she could be pregnant. i feel awkward talking to her, because her and i used to have a strong relationship but we never went out, and all the promises that she made...down the drain...a few minutes of pleasure for a lifetime of regret. is it really worth it? i'm not sure which was the bigger mistake...not preventing her from doing it, or trusting that she wouldn't let it happen to herself. don't fool yourself. no matter how strong you think a promise is, it can still be broken. sometimes i believe people get confused and so they purposely make the wrong choices so that someone can tell them that it's not the right way, and the next time the situation comes up they'll know the consequences of the bad choice. i dunno, maybe i have it all wrong. maybe what i see as the wrong choice is really the right choice, but i doubt it. learning by mistake is usually the best way to learn, but some people will never learn. anyway, out of all the confusion, and all the mistakes i've made, all the misunderstood things i've said, everything that anyone took offensive, even all the things i said about KI...I'm sorry. whether it needs to be said or not, it makes me feel better to say it. out of the deepest part of my heart, i'm sorry...
Thanks Thinkdink. I needed that. I am sorry for such tragic News about your friends. I see where you are upset. and So Was I. So I sincerely apologize. Maybe we will be better friends after this. See My Board Apology on
Beta Testers Needed. Thanks Bud.
Matthew alias Hance
Beta Testers Needed. Thanks Bud.
Matthew alias Hance
Well my illusive friend, life will give you many a hard knocks, nothing is ever what you think it is/was/or may be, and nobody is perfect. I am not preaching, just letting you know that some of us have been there, others will be there and there are others that wish that life is/was a bad dream, from which they can't awake(ahem... I would be one of those..). You are young and will make mistakes and do good in this world, just remember never surrender.
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dang straight, Kat. I would say Im sorry and all that jazz, but weve already had this discussion and I talk to you every day heh. Even so, I will tell ya that Ive experienced a bit of what you are now in the past. You dont really realize the true nature of the world until you hit 13... then it just kinda hits you. It might not be pretty all the time or even half of the time, but we have to make the best of it because its all weve got. Dont ever forget that no matter what I tell you in the future because I am very unstable. 
Anyway sorry about the hard situations youve been through in the past week and hope everything gets back to normal (it always does.) But whatever you do, dont give your cat a taste of its own medicine...you tend to get lacerations on your rear end...I think you know what Im talking about LoL. Well thats all for me for now, l8er bro.
Anyway sorry about the hard situations youve been through in the past week and hope everything gets back to normal (it always does.) But whatever you do, dont give your cat a taste of its own medicine...you tend to get lacerations on your rear end...I think you know what Im talking about LoL. Well thats all for me for now, l8er bro. Thanks, guys (and Kat )...I guess the worst part about these things is that no one understands just why they happen, which leads me to believe that maybe there ISN'T a reason for everything...but that's a different story. If things like what happened this week are going to continue to happen to me, at least I won't be alone as I'm not the only one these things happen to. 
Once again, thanks.
And by the way, hance...it's illusivefing, not ThinkDink.
)...I guess the worst part about these things is that no one understands just why they happen, which leads me to believe that maybe there ISN'T a reason for everything...but that's a different story. If things like what happened this week are going to continue to happen to me, at least I won't be alone as I'm not the only one these things happen to. Once again, thanks.And by the way, hance...it's illusivefing, not ThinkDink.
