An unusual path.
I originally posted this on the Werelist, a Therian website. While I am currently awaiting response from fellow Theri, I want to share this with you guys. While I want a Therian viewpoint on this, I also want the opinion of Nonkin. This is the original post, and I left nothing out. A few of you will know of a few things pointed out as I have shared them with you, a few of you won't.
'Recently I've moved to Oregon, been here for a few months, and nothing really major has happened. I haven't felt many huge shifts, except for a more recent one, and have been pretty mellow.
But recently, life has taken a strange quality, almost dreamlike, but not quite. Everything seems off, I'm feeling paranoid, but not paranoid. It's... difficult to explain.
I guess the best place to begin would be the past. Ever since fifth grade, the worst year of my life, I've grown more intelligent, I've seen patterns that are either there, or not. I mostly ignore these patterns since they always change after a while and don't affect me. I awakened as a Therian a year or two after fifth grade ended, (I am currently sixteen, going on seventeen on Nov. 16 and a Sophomore in High School) and felt a powerful, frightening shift during the New Year (One could describe it as a physical shift without the physical changes, but that's my thought). Nothing major like that happened afterward.
But recently I feel... Trapped? No, but it's close. Contained, probably. I constantly pace around, I'll look out the window and expect a face from my early childhood that had scared me to appear. I don't feel fear when I am alone, nor am I aggressive. I'm tense, but I'm not stressed or wary. My shifting is more erratic, sometimes I'll mentally shift spontaneously, my normally easygoing, humored self giving way to a serious, irritated, and withdrawn other. I don't hear voices or anything, except when I'm writing a book, then I need voices to run through the dialogue to keep it natural, but I digress.
I don't hear voices, I occasionally see phantom images out of the corner of my eye and sometimes in front of me, I often look in the mirror and see something strange that isn't there. I cannot make it out, I don't even really see it. I just sense it. I do not feel as if I am being watched, I don't feel like anyone's out to get me, I feel pretty safe, except when another person threatens me, I fear the dark to an extent, as a normal person does... Basically, I feel normal, but not normal. I do have nightmares often, vivid ones, but that's normal and I've adapted to that for years.'
So, yeah. That's the little snafu in my life. Any thoughts?
'Recently I've moved to Oregon, been here for a few months, and nothing really major has happened. I haven't felt many huge shifts, except for a more recent one, and have been pretty mellow.
But recently, life has taken a strange quality, almost dreamlike, but not quite. Everything seems off, I'm feeling paranoid, but not paranoid. It's... difficult to explain.
I guess the best place to begin would be the past. Ever since fifth grade, the worst year of my life, I've grown more intelligent, I've seen patterns that are either there, or not. I mostly ignore these patterns since they always change after a while and don't affect me. I awakened as a Therian a year or two after fifth grade ended, (I am currently sixteen, going on seventeen on Nov. 16 and a Sophomore in High School) and felt a powerful, frightening shift during the New Year (One could describe it as a physical shift without the physical changes, but that's my thought). Nothing major like that happened afterward.
But recently I feel... Trapped? No, but it's close. Contained, probably. I constantly pace around, I'll look out the window and expect a face from my early childhood that had scared me to appear. I don't feel fear when I am alone, nor am I aggressive. I'm tense, but I'm not stressed or wary. My shifting is more erratic, sometimes I'll mentally shift spontaneously, my normally easygoing, humored self giving way to a serious, irritated, and withdrawn other. I don't hear voices or anything, except when I'm writing a book, then I need voices to run through the dialogue to keep it natural, but I digress.
I don't hear voices, I occasionally see phantom images out of the corner of my eye and sometimes in front of me, I often look in the mirror and see something strange that isn't there. I cannot make it out, I don't even really see it. I just sense it. I do not feel as if I am being watched, I don't feel like anyone's out to get me, I feel pretty safe, except when another person threatens me, I fear the dark to an extent, as a normal person does... Basically, I feel normal, but not normal. I do have nightmares often, vivid ones, but that's normal and I've adapted to that for years.'
So, yeah. That's the little snafu in my life. Any thoughts?
Happens, especially after moving.
And the images? I saw them too last year.
We're haunted.
And the images? I saw them too last year.
We're haunted.
I feel the same way ALL the time.It's probably our horrible childhood memories coming back to haunt us.We both NEED psychiatrists! I've had a horrible childhood too,the worst years were 3rd to 7th grade.
Erm, with the seeing things that aren't there, I really meant, seeing nothing, but sensing something was there. As if I could reach out, touch something, but in practice I would feel nothing but a neutral energy. Hope this clears a few things up.
