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Hey. Almost everything you described about yourself applies to me too. no friends. only talk to family. not satisfied with that either. no going outside (my average going out might be 1 in 10 days and that's just walking for an hour or so). not enjoying the process I have to go through to get things done. no job. one day I feel like I can do anything and loads of ideas flow inside my head and the next day I am completely unmotivated and depressed (never been to a doctor but I think my problem is ultradian bipolar disorder). So all I'm saying is, I know what you're going through and I completely feel you (hell I made an account just so I could reply to you)
Now enough about me. I think there is something you CAN do.
You said you hate to put effort in anything, and I get that, but I think to get over this you have to think smaller. if you are even more like me, whenever you think up a new project you think too big. like something that takes weeks of effort to complete. I think THAT is the problem. you said something about writing reviews for games you like. I think that's your way in. You gotta take projects you could complete in only one day (one sitting even). I know actually doing them is still not your cup of tea but compared to feeling awful everyday it's completely worth trying and it's actually doable. Not saying you have to make a career out of it or you have to do it everyday from now on... I'm saying only do it once (if you think you still can't manage that, then make it a short review). then put it out there. see what happens. if you were happy with the result (the feedback or even the fact that you actually completed something) do it again later.
I hope this helps somehow.
by the way, you are still much more sociable than me. I'm not even on any social media or forum (except for this one which I joined to reply to this and tweeter which I haven't even tweeted anything on and only use to follow a few people I admire)
Hope you feel better soon.
Now enough about me. I think there is something you CAN do.
You said you hate to put effort in anything, and I get that, but I think to get over this you have to think smaller. if you are even more like me, whenever you think up a new project you think too big. like something that takes weeks of effort to complete. I think THAT is the problem. you said something about writing reviews for games you like. I think that's your way in. You gotta take projects you could complete in only one day (one sitting even). I know actually doing them is still not your cup of tea but compared to feeling awful everyday it's completely worth trying and it's actually doable. Not saying you have to make a career out of it or you have to do it everyday from now on... I'm saying only do it once (if you think you still can't manage that, then make it a short review). then put it out there. see what happens. if you were happy with the result (the feedback or even the fact that you actually completed something) do it again later.
I hope this helps somehow.
by the way, you are still much more sociable than me. I'm not even on any social media or forum (except for this one which I joined to reply to this and tweeter which I haven't even tweeted anything on and only use to follow a few people I admire)
Hope you feel better soon.
